Hmm... So that was a bit of failure. I'm going to have to work on this recipe. First off, the spring roll wrappers I had were a new brand and I really don't like them. They never really got pliable like they are supposed to. Even after sitting in water for a while they were still a little soft. Also they were really big, so when I rolled them there were lots of layers of spring roll. And then I tried baking them for a while, and they just kinda smelled like melted plastic after that, so I just ate the filling out, and called it good. I didn't eat the rolls because I was a little scared. They should be able to get hot tho, since spring rolls can be fried, so I don't understand why they couldn't be baked. This recipe will take some work. And probably a new brand of spring rolls.
The filling was good though, it was just some chicken cooked in taco seasoning (still working on making my own sometime for that, this one had dairy in it) and some olives and a little cheese. Dipped in some salsa. It was good! But will definitely have to figure out the whole spring roll situation.
Tuesday, February 26, 2013
Monday, February 25, 2013
Travel
So I have to say, I am not as dedicated as my lovely cousin Cathy. I felt really bad for her and everything that she was dealing with, but I have to say she stayed classy! Only caused drama one time which is very impressive. Personally, I decided I didn't want to cause a huge stink and just made sure to stay away from gluten. Other things on my list are still voluntary currently, so I just figured I wouldn't worry about it. Maybe after my dr appointment in a month I will have to become a little more of a drama queen. But for now my trip went very smoothly!
Also now I am back to Montana and back to my routines, so hopefully I can figure out more time to work on this blog of mine. I'm considering taking this out of BlogSpot and moving on to like an actual website that is just mine. Debating it. I have to think about this. Maybe that will be my summer project or something, when I have a little more time to dedicate to cooking and writing and stuff. Still just trying to figure out what I really want to do with this blog, like if I just want it to be for me, or if I want it to be for the world or maybe eventually a source of income or if I want to be "blogger famous" or whatever. Which obviously would take some work.
Anyways I'm off to make some dinner eventually, gonna try some baked taco spring roll roll ups. Might have to come up with a better name for those lol. I will let you know how they turn out. :)
Also now I am back to Montana and back to my routines, so hopefully I can figure out more time to work on this blog of mine. I'm considering taking this out of BlogSpot and moving on to like an actual website that is just mine. Debating it. I have to think about this. Maybe that will be my summer project or something, when I have a little more time to dedicate to cooking and writing and stuff. Still just trying to figure out what I really want to do with this blog, like if I just want it to be for me, or if I want it to be for the world or maybe eventually a source of income or if I want to be "blogger famous" or whatever. Which obviously would take some work.
Anyways I'm off to make some dinner eventually, gonna try some baked taco spring roll roll ups. Might have to come up with a better name for those lol. I will let you know how they turn out. :)
Thursday, February 14, 2013
It's been a while
OK I know I haven't been on here in a while. But not really much new to report. I tend to overestimate how much food I can actually eat in a certain amount of time, so I still haven't started my new diet because I am still working on eating all my leftovers and freezer meals and things so that my food doesn't go to waste!
So probably come Sunday I will be on my new diet. And guess what the first things I'm going to make are? Yup, you guess it. Pumpkin waffles and Chocolate chip scones! (Maybe carob chip scones since I'm trying no sugar, but will probably make at least a couple first the regular way to see how they are supposed to come out before I start changing the recipe).
My cousin just found out that she is allergic to eggs and sugar, and I'm trying to stay away from sugar, so I'm going to try to make them egg and sugar free scones. So we shall see what happens.
Also just because I was curious I looked up the other day on the internet to see if you could get yogurt anywhere that is not made from either dairy or soy. And I did find some places where you could buy almond milk yogurt! Which makes me super happy. Because remember that peach breakfast bake I made? It was so good with yogurt on top. And pretty easy to make dairy/soy free because you can just use apple sauce instead of butter. And now I can have yogurt too! Or I'll bet those pumpkin pancakes would be good with yogurt and fruit on top rather than syrup. Though I will have to check for sugar content. There were also some recipes for homemade yogurt, but this is how I feel about that...
So probably come Sunday I will be on my new diet. And guess what the first things I'm going to make are? Yup, you guess it. Pumpkin waffles and Chocolate chip scones! (Maybe carob chip scones since I'm trying no sugar, but will probably make at least a couple first the regular way to see how they are supposed to come out before I start changing the recipe).
My cousin just found out that she is allergic to eggs and sugar, and I'm trying to stay away from sugar, so I'm going to try to make them egg and sugar free scones. So we shall see what happens.
Also just because I was curious I looked up the other day on the internet to see if you could get yogurt anywhere that is not made from either dairy or soy. And I did find some places where you could buy almond milk yogurt! Which makes me super happy. Because remember that peach breakfast bake I made? It was so good with yogurt on top. And pretty easy to make dairy/soy free because you can just use apple sauce instead of butter. And now I can have yogurt too! Or I'll bet those pumpkin pancakes would be good with yogurt and fruit on top rather than syrup. Though I will have to check for sugar content. There were also some recipes for homemade yogurt, but this is how I feel about that...
But if I am trying to cut out sugar as well I might have to try making my own. We shall see. I'm guessing that's not something I will be able to just go to the store and pick up, because well, I live in Montana. Yup, not much here when it comes to food things. But that's ok it might help me learn more how to make things on my own! So we shall see what happens.
Anyways just wanted to say GOOD LUCK! to my cousin Cathy. I know she has been having a rough time dealing with all her new allergies and trying to find things to eat, especially when she is out on the town. So good luck girl, and hang in there. You will figure it out, I promise. And if there's anything I can do, just let me know!
I'll keep you guys all updated come Sunday once my new diet really starts. For now I'm going to enjoy some valentine's day candy. :)
Friday, February 8, 2013
Highs and Lows
Haha so I have to share this. Today after work I went over to the coffee shop, because I decided since today is my last day I could get coffee, because they use soy milk and everything has sugar in it and too much caffeine isn't good for you anyways, I should go enjoy my one last latte. And they had a sign up saying that they now offer rice and almond milk. And I was so excited! I was like omg no soy milk I can have coffee still! Or even though most of the flavorings have corn syrup most likely, I can have chai at least still! And then I remembered that sugar is also on my no-no list and chai mix definitely has sugar in it... sad face. But at least now if I want some tea with milk or something I can have that. Usually not a huge milk in tea person but with the right tea it's pretty good. And I know they have stevia there, so I can get some fruity tea with a little almond milk and stevia. Sounds good to me. Anyways, just had to share that moment. I was so excited! And then so sad. But I'm back to pretty even now. :)
Thursday, February 7, 2013
Musings
Hmm so not really sure what to be talking about but I feel like I should be talking about something.... There's just so much going through my head right now that I can't even process. So I'm just going to ramble!
First off, VERY excited for my cousin Cathy, who just had her first appointment with a nutritionist and feels much closer to her goal of solving leaky gut! Which is awesome! A crazy way to get there it sounds like, but I'm very happy for her. It's crazy how different Eastern and Western medication are. Considering my history with Western medication, I am becoming more and more inclined to give Eastern a try, but it sounds like that could be an interesting experience! But I'm excited to try! So over being a pill popper.
However, about that, I made a big oops and apparently scheduled my naturopath appointment for Feb 11 (which is Monday) rather than March 11 like I meant to. So I won't be able to make it on Monday but now March 11 is full... So I had to move it to March 29, which is another random day we have off of school (and thus work) so I don't have to take time off for my appointment. But that does mean a few weeks more until my appointment. But that's ok, I'll just work on my own for now! Though after what Cathy said sometimes I wonder if I even want a food allergy test anymore! If she wishes she hadn't gotten it, it seems like a waste of money now after talking to her new person. But I do still want to keep my appointment and see what they say. Also I'm trying to fix a different problem than leaky gut since I'm trying to fix HS. So the food might be very prevalent there! So I think I will just ask the doctors what they think. That sounds like a plan.
Anyways, speaking of food things, another couple things that Cathy's new doctor told her are that sugar is toxic and soy is bad. Now I already knew that soy was bad, almost all of the soy in our world is GMO. Which is generally considered to be bad for you. Who knows what is going on with things that aren't natural. But at the same time, so many people blame the prevalence of gluten allergies on GMO things, but did you know that there actually is no GMO wheat on the market? There's wheat that has been adapted by selection, but only selection of genes that are already there. No crazy new never heard of genes. Which I find interesting. But also think we should try to stay away from GMO foods. I googled this real fast, and the top GMO foods in this country are: Corn, Soy, Sugar, Aspartame (fake sweetener), Papayays (?), Canola, Cotton, Dairy, and Zucchini (Source here). Now I don't really know how sound this source is, it was just the first thing that popped up on google. BUT I do know that corn and soy are very GMO heavy, so I'm just gonna go ahead and trust this list. Which is sad because I love zucchini... Hmm gonna have to start buying organic! The funny thing is, generally organic is considered ok and not GMO, but when it comes to soy there has been so much genetic modification that even the organic is GMO usually. So pretty much all soy is bad juju.
So I think I'm going to try a self diet, where I don't eat things that I shouldn't. Hmm, brilliant move there. Lol. But I'm talking choosing between all these things as far as what to eat and what not to eat. So, I'm definitely saying no GMO. Also I know I already can't eat gluten. And I have found out from others that most people who are gluten intolerant are also intolerant of dairy and/or corn. Which both also happen to be on the GMO list. Now I did not know that sugar was on the GMO list, but I have also learned that sugar is not in any way good for you, even natural sugars like honey and maple syrup. It just messes with your internal systems. Especially when you eat too much of it. If you have never read Lick the Sugar Habit by Nancy Appleton I highly recommend it.
SO, all this to say that come Monday (I have to wait until Monday because that's when I get paid and will be grocery shopping... before that I will be eating whatever is left in my cupboards) this will be my new self-inflicted diet: no gluten, no corn, no soy, no sugar, no dairy. And let me tell you, it is going to be HARD. Even just the no corn is hard with still getting sweets from other ways, the no sugar thing is gonna kill me. And I know everyone says oh the cravings will go away in a few weeks, which I do appreciate and am happy to know, but it is such a hard 2 weeks to get through! GAH. I haven't actually made it yet even on the corn thing. I think the most days of not eating corn I've made in a row is like 5? And sometimes it's just an oops I forgot to read a label thing, but sometimes it's just me giving into cravings. So I really need to work on this! Thankfully I have a pretty creative head when it comes to foods, and so does my cousin and my brother so I will be able to come up with some awesome recipes for my journey I'm sure, which I will of course share with you. But I'm definitely gonna miss some things. Like cheese. And cornbread. And all sugar products.
Also, I think I've mentioned this but I am pretty lactose intolerant so I really shouldn't be eating dairy already, I just am bad at sticking to that one. Which is another thing I have been really thinking about this week.
I am terrible and making new habits. I will just say it. I'm a pretty lazy person and I like my routines. It is so hard for me to change. I hate getting up before I have to, even if getting up early means I can get a workout in that I know I won't do later because I'm tired. I will hit the snooze for an hour rather than get up and do my pilates. I will just sit and play games on my phone or scroll pinterest at the end of the evening instead of doing something good for me, like some yoga or even just reading a book. I think I have a screen time problem. Dang iphones. I love it, but man sometimes I just need to lock it in the corner or something. And when I realize things like this, it's very easy for me to get down on myself. Like why I can't just do something that I know is good for me? Does anyone else have this problem? I know I should get up and do my pilates and some jumping jacks, but I just hit the snooze. I know I need to not eat dairy or sugar but hey look at me eating ice cream. And I don't know why. I need help. If anyone has some ideas let me know because I am getting so frustrated with myself!
That's another thing I'm asking for. I want someone to hold me to this. Cathy, if you want to just text me once a week and be like hey how's the diet? And send me a couple words of encouragement. I just need to know that someone else cares that I'm getting healthy. Which I know people do, but sometimes no one says anything. Or anytime I talk to my mom about how I need to start working out more she just encourages it because of a weight loss thing I feel like. Which yes I do need to lose weight, my BMI is 26 which is technically overweight. But I feel like there is so much more to a "getting healthy" journey than just a number on a scale and I feel like that is all people reduce it to. And that's not enough motivation for me. Also it's hard to do something just so that I don't have a heart attach in 30 years. That's not much motivation either. I already know all this. I need something else. I just haven't figured out what it is yet.
So, I'm going to be sad for just one more minute here and then it's going to get exciting again. I know they say when you have allergies or if you are on a diet, not to focus on things you can't or don't eat anymore, because that just gets you down. You are supposed to think of all the things you can eat! But I feel the need to have a moment of silence for the things I will no longer be consuming....
Cheese. Chocolate. Ice Cream. Cornbread. Candy. Most alcoholic beverages. Chocolate milk. Goat Cheese. Jam. Any processed foods. Butter. Cookies. Birthday cake. Fudge. Anything with soy or corn oil, so probably no potato chips or French fries. Popcorn. Ranch dressing.
OK this is getting depressing, I'm done. Now, on to the exciting things I will be making, and attempting relatively soon!
Coconut rice
Any new kind of meat creation
Chili
Homemade marinara sauce and spaghetti (maybe even with meatballs)
Pumpkin waffles
pumpkin bread
anything with fruit in it! Fruit syrup for pancakes and waffles?
And this summer when it's bbq season again it's gonna get real crazy up in here. I got a few ideas, like homemade teriyaki sauce for grilled chicken or shrimp. Or there's this mango jalapeno shrimp that they make at red lobster which sounds awesome so I might have to attempt some homemade version of that. (I love shrimp but I really only like it bbq'd because it's less watery that way if you are wondering why I have to wait for summer for these)
Lots of soups
Pastas with new sauces that don't have dairy or gluten, like my brother made gluten and dairy free alfredo sauce, might have to play with that some. Though I don't know what I would use as a butter substitute since the only non-dairy butter I know of is soy based... Or maybe like an avocado sauce so it is still creamy, or some good oil/vinegar sauces
homemade salad dressings?
Homemade granola bars?
So many great ideas! Things I can still eat! YAY.
So one exciting things is that stevia is still allowed in this diet. Pretty much the only sweetener allowed but at least it's there. So maybe I can still have birthday cake :) or like in that pumpkin bread I want to make it probably calls for sugar, so I'll just try it with stevia. Or Cathy keeps telling me I really need to make these chocolate chip scones. But, no chocolate, so maybe I will just make them into blueberry scones with stevia. Or maybe cranberry, since I probably don't want the extra liquid of blueberries, so if I did cranberry I could use craisins. Or maybe dried blueberries! So many ideas.
I will keep you all updated on how all of this goes. I can plan all I want, but the hard part is really putting it all into action. Because sometimes I just really want chocolate. Like every month when I am PMSing.
Anyways I'm gonna go order some almond flour online. Y'all have a good night!
First off, VERY excited for my cousin Cathy, who just had her first appointment with a nutritionist and feels much closer to her goal of solving leaky gut! Which is awesome! A crazy way to get there it sounds like, but I'm very happy for her. It's crazy how different Eastern and Western medication are. Considering my history with Western medication, I am becoming more and more inclined to give Eastern a try, but it sounds like that could be an interesting experience! But I'm excited to try! So over being a pill popper.
However, about that, I made a big oops and apparently scheduled my naturopath appointment for Feb 11 (which is Monday) rather than March 11 like I meant to. So I won't be able to make it on Monday but now March 11 is full... So I had to move it to March 29, which is another random day we have off of school (and thus work) so I don't have to take time off for my appointment. But that does mean a few weeks more until my appointment. But that's ok, I'll just work on my own for now! Though after what Cathy said sometimes I wonder if I even want a food allergy test anymore! If she wishes she hadn't gotten it, it seems like a waste of money now after talking to her new person. But I do still want to keep my appointment and see what they say. Also I'm trying to fix a different problem than leaky gut since I'm trying to fix HS. So the food might be very prevalent there! So I think I will just ask the doctors what they think. That sounds like a plan.
Anyways, speaking of food things, another couple things that Cathy's new doctor told her are that sugar is toxic and soy is bad. Now I already knew that soy was bad, almost all of the soy in our world is GMO. Which is generally considered to be bad for you. Who knows what is going on with things that aren't natural. But at the same time, so many people blame the prevalence of gluten allergies on GMO things, but did you know that there actually is no GMO wheat on the market? There's wheat that has been adapted by selection, but only selection of genes that are already there. No crazy new never heard of genes. Which I find interesting. But also think we should try to stay away from GMO foods. I googled this real fast, and the top GMO foods in this country are: Corn, Soy, Sugar, Aspartame (fake sweetener), Papayays (?), Canola, Cotton, Dairy, and Zucchini (Source here). Now I don't really know how sound this source is, it was just the first thing that popped up on google. BUT I do know that corn and soy are very GMO heavy, so I'm just gonna go ahead and trust this list. Which is sad because I love zucchini... Hmm gonna have to start buying organic! The funny thing is, generally organic is considered ok and not GMO, but when it comes to soy there has been so much genetic modification that even the organic is GMO usually. So pretty much all soy is bad juju.
So I think I'm going to try a self diet, where I don't eat things that I shouldn't. Hmm, brilliant move there. Lol. But I'm talking choosing between all these things as far as what to eat and what not to eat. So, I'm definitely saying no GMO. Also I know I already can't eat gluten. And I have found out from others that most people who are gluten intolerant are also intolerant of dairy and/or corn. Which both also happen to be on the GMO list. Now I did not know that sugar was on the GMO list, but I have also learned that sugar is not in any way good for you, even natural sugars like honey and maple syrup. It just messes with your internal systems. Especially when you eat too much of it. If you have never read Lick the Sugar Habit by Nancy Appleton I highly recommend it.
SO, all this to say that come Monday (I have to wait until Monday because that's when I get paid and will be grocery shopping... before that I will be eating whatever is left in my cupboards) this will be my new self-inflicted diet: no gluten, no corn, no soy, no sugar, no dairy. And let me tell you, it is going to be HARD. Even just the no corn is hard with still getting sweets from other ways, the no sugar thing is gonna kill me. And I know everyone says oh the cravings will go away in a few weeks, which I do appreciate and am happy to know, but it is such a hard 2 weeks to get through! GAH. I haven't actually made it yet even on the corn thing. I think the most days of not eating corn I've made in a row is like 5? And sometimes it's just an oops I forgot to read a label thing, but sometimes it's just me giving into cravings. So I really need to work on this! Thankfully I have a pretty creative head when it comes to foods, and so does my cousin and my brother so I will be able to come up with some awesome recipes for my journey I'm sure, which I will of course share with you. But I'm definitely gonna miss some things. Like cheese. And cornbread. And all sugar products.
Also, I think I've mentioned this but I am pretty lactose intolerant so I really shouldn't be eating dairy already, I just am bad at sticking to that one. Which is another thing I have been really thinking about this week.
I am terrible and making new habits. I will just say it. I'm a pretty lazy person and I like my routines. It is so hard for me to change. I hate getting up before I have to, even if getting up early means I can get a workout in that I know I won't do later because I'm tired. I will hit the snooze for an hour rather than get up and do my pilates. I will just sit and play games on my phone or scroll pinterest at the end of the evening instead of doing something good for me, like some yoga or even just reading a book. I think I have a screen time problem. Dang iphones. I love it, but man sometimes I just need to lock it in the corner or something. And when I realize things like this, it's very easy for me to get down on myself. Like why I can't just do something that I know is good for me? Does anyone else have this problem? I know I should get up and do my pilates and some jumping jacks, but I just hit the snooze. I know I need to not eat dairy or sugar but hey look at me eating ice cream. And I don't know why. I need help. If anyone has some ideas let me know because I am getting so frustrated with myself!
That's another thing I'm asking for. I want someone to hold me to this. Cathy, if you want to just text me once a week and be like hey how's the diet? And send me a couple words of encouragement. I just need to know that someone else cares that I'm getting healthy. Which I know people do, but sometimes no one says anything. Or anytime I talk to my mom about how I need to start working out more she just encourages it because of a weight loss thing I feel like. Which yes I do need to lose weight, my BMI is 26 which is technically overweight. But I feel like there is so much more to a "getting healthy" journey than just a number on a scale and I feel like that is all people reduce it to. And that's not enough motivation for me. Also it's hard to do something just so that I don't have a heart attach in 30 years. That's not much motivation either. I already know all this. I need something else. I just haven't figured out what it is yet.
So, I'm going to be sad for just one more minute here and then it's going to get exciting again. I know they say when you have allergies or if you are on a diet, not to focus on things you can't or don't eat anymore, because that just gets you down. You are supposed to think of all the things you can eat! But I feel the need to have a moment of silence for the things I will no longer be consuming....
Cheese. Chocolate. Ice Cream. Cornbread. Candy. Most alcoholic beverages. Chocolate milk. Goat Cheese. Jam. Any processed foods. Butter. Cookies. Birthday cake. Fudge. Anything with soy or corn oil, so probably no potato chips or French fries. Popcorn. Ranch dressing.
OK this is getting depressing, I'm done. Now, on to the exciting things I will be making, and attempting relatively soon!
Coconut rice
Any new kind of meat creation
Chili
Homemade marinara sauce and spaghetti (maybe even with meatballs)
Pumpkin waffles
pumpkin bread
anything with fruit in it! Fruit syrup for pancakes and waffles?
And this summer when it's bbq season again it's gonna get real crazy up in here. I got a few ideas, like homemade teriyaki sauce for grilled chicken or shrimp. Or there's this mango jalapeno shrimp that they make at red lobster which sounds awesome so I might have to attempt some homemade version of that. (I love shrimp but I really only like it bbq'd because it's less watery that way if you are wondering why I have to wait for summer for these)
Lots of soups
Pastas with new sauces that don't have dairy or gluten, like my brother made gluten and dairy free alfredo sauce, might have to play with that some. Though I don't know what I would use as a butter substitute since the only non-dairy butter I know of is soy based... Or maybe like an avocado sauce so it is still creamy, or some good oil/vinegar sauces
homemade salad dressings?
Homemade granola bars?
So many great ideas! Things I can still eat! YAY.
So one exciting things is that stevia is still allowed in this diet. Pretty much the only sweetener allowed but at least it's there. So maybe I can still have birthday cake :) or like in that pumpkin bread I want to make it probably calls for sugar, so I'll just try it with stevia. Or Cathy keeps telling me I really need to make these chocolate chip scones. But, no chocolate, so maybe I will just make them into blueberry scones with stevia. Or maybe cranberry, since I probably don't want the extra liquid of blueberries, so if I did cranberry I could use craisins. Or maybe dried blueberries! So many ideas.
I will keep you all updated on how all of this goes. I can plan all I want, but the hard part is really putting it all into action. Because sometimes I just really want chocolate. Like every month when I am PMSing.
Anyways I'm gonna go order some almond flour online. Y'all have a good night!
Monday, February 4, 2013
Cookbook!
Got my almond flour cookbook today!!! YAY! So So So So So SO excited! I just want to make everything. But, as per requested, I will definitely be starting with the scones. Also I need to get good almond flour, and I will probably have to get it online, because I used Bob's Red Mill almond flour the other day and I wasn't a huge fan. It was kinda grainy. I used it to make sugar cookies for my fruit pizza (which was delicious btw) and they tasted really good once they were baked, but the dough was pretty grainy. Like when you ate a bite of dough it felt like it wasn't mixed all the way and it was like you were still chewing chunks of nuts. Didn't really like it. What's the fun of making cookies if you can't eat the dough?
So anyways, just wanted to say yay I got my cookbook and I can't wait to try it!
So anyways, just wanted to say yay I got my cookbook and I can't wait to try it!
Saturday, February 2, 2013
The insanity of my life
So, this has been a very interesting week. And by interesting I mean hellish, emotional, crazy, busy, insane, painful, oh and did I mention insane and crazy? So I haven't posted since Tuesday, so let's see what's been happening since Tuesday...
Well on Tuesday I think I mentioned this, but I was in loads of pain in my armpits, which I probably tied to swimming. Oops. My own fault, but still not at all fun to deal with. So I was still in pain come Wednesday, but I had a dr apt so I was hoping that would make me feel better. Which it didn't. I went to the dr on Wednesday and she drained a couple of the really big abscesses (eww, I know) and so then they kind of felt a little better because some of the pressure was off. But it usually takes a few hours for them to really feel better, so didn't make a huge difference at that point. And then she proceeded to tell me that one of them is looking a little big, and this is the second time she has had to drain it, so it might be a good idea to look into surgery on it. Which this is not the first time I've had surgery, I've had like 4 or 5 so far, but it's just so disheartening every time I have one. I think I'm getting better with the no gluten and stuff and then something acts up anyways. Which I do generally respond very well to surgery, it does get rid of the problem, but I just hate that I have to have them. So after 2 days of large amounts of pain and no sleep because of said pain, to then be told maybe another surgery (which are really painful even though she uses anesthetic because I metabolize drugs really quickly so it's hard to keep up) was just the last straw. I went home and ate my weight in chocolate (bad, I know) and watched the Big Bang Theory for like 2 hours. That is my feel better show because it always makes me laugh. That one and How I Met Your Mother. And then I had told my mom to call me when she was free, so she called me about 9, and I decided it was a good time to have a complete emotional break down and we talked until 11 at night. Basically it consisted of "my life is insane and I can't handle it anymore." There's so many things that I want to do but I just never have time! Like I only have 1 day off a week that I'm not working at all, and 3 days a week I'm working for almost 12 hours. 13 hours if you count transportation time. It's ridiculous. And then I hadn't had any sleep and then I was all bummed because of my surgery. I can generally handle my skin disease, I'm usually just like whatever I have a problem ok cool moving on. But when it is causing me that much pain, I can get really down about it. So between all of that together, I cried and Mom fixed all my problems. It was great. Ok, to just give you a picture of what I'm talking about, this was my week last week.
SUNDAY: Swam with Masters, 10-11:30, stayed home after that, it was nice, got some laundry done, cooked some food, got ready for the week, etc. Probably went to bed about 11 pm
MONDAY: Got up at 6 am, left my house at 6:45, worked 7-3:30, got home about 3:45. Made that avocado chicken salad, made a sandwich, subbed for someone at the pool, so left my house again at 4:40, went to work 5-6 at the pool. Only worked an hour, because they didn't really need me and I wanted to swim. Swam 6:15-7:45, got home about 8, watched the biggest loser, went to bed about 9:30. Woke up at 12:30, in super amounts of pain, slept very fitfully and not much until 6.
TUESDAY: Got up at 6, worked on campus 7-3:30, got home about 3:45, left my house at 4:40, worked 5-8:30 at the pool, got home about 8:45, went to bed about 9:30, still in lots of pain, still didn't get much sleep
WEDNESDAY: Got up at 6, worked on campus 7-3:30, after work went to the grocery store and the dr, got home about 5:30, hung out at home til about 9, had an emotional breakdown until about 11, talked to my roommate about it because she had heard me crying until about 12, went to bed about 12:30 because I took a real fast shower first
THURSDAY: Got up at 6, worked 7-3:30, got home at 3:45, did some paperwork online for work, took a shower, left my house at 4:20 because I had to go to CVS and pick up a prescription before work, worked 5-8:30 at the pool, got home about 8:45, had a glass of wine and went to bed at 9:30.
FRIDAY: Got up at 6, finally got a decent amount of sleep but still exhausted, worked 7-3:30 on campus which was crazy because it was MSU Friday where all the prospective high school students come check out the school, went home about 3:45, left my house at 3:50, walked to the pool, picked up my paycheck, walked to the bank and then back to the pool, got to the pool about 4:45, sat for 10 minutes, worked 5-8:30 at the pool, got home about 8:45, ate some dinner, then my friend picked me up about 9:30 and we went to the movies, got home about midnight, went to bed
SATURDAY: Alarm didn't go off, woke up about 8:45, ran around like a crazy person, got to work about 15 minutes late (I'm supposed to be there at 9), worked 9-6 at the pool with a 1 hour lunch break, came home, went to the grocery store so that I have all my food for Super Bowl Sunday, got home about 7 from that, ate some dinner and now I'm writing this.
Yeah.... INSANE. Which usually I wouldn't have worked at all Monday, and on Friday I usually would have had more time at home because I don't have to pick up a paycheck every Friday but still. It was crazy. So you could see how there would be no time to do fun things, or even things I need to do. Like I still haven't called the company about my juicer. And I've been meaning to make time to finally learn how to snowboard, but not really time for that. My one day off from work I'm at home doing laundry and grocery shopping and cooking and it's not even really a day off. But Mom told me that it's ok to say I'm doing too much, or I bit off more than I could chew, so I decided to give up a night at the pool. So I talked to my friend Maggie who just graduated and is looking for more hours and I told her I wanted less, so she will be working Tuesdays for me at the pool for the foreseeable future. YAY one more night at home. So that means I can maybe do things like make Monday night laundry night which will free up a little more of Sunday. Or maybe actually make it to masters more than once a week because I have another night I can stay home and cook or do whatever I need to get done. Hopefully that will free up a lot of time. Which I am super excited about. So I feel a lot better about that. Also my armpits are not nearly in as much pain, so that's better. And there's a 3 day weekend coming up in a few weeks so my friend Kayla and I made plans to go snowboarding! So I finally sort of feel like I have a bit more of a handle on my life. It's a good feeling. Mom's are awesome like that.
On a side note, last night for dinner I made a grilled cheese version of that avocado chicken salad sandwich, a couple slices of provolone, some Anaheim peppers and red onions, and it was awesome. Highly recommended. :)
So anyways, this was pretty much just to say sorry I haven't been posting all week, but you can see why. Also I haven't been doing great in the food department, sometimes I just didn't have time to eat anything except what was the first thing I could get my hands on so I messed up a few times I know. Gonna try to get back into it really well on Monday. But only about 5 weeks until my naturopath appointment, yay!
Hope you all had a better week than I did
Well on Tuesday I think I mentioned this, but I was in loads of pain in my armpits, which I probably tied to swimming. Oops. My own fault, but still not at all fun to deal with. So I was still in pain come Wednesday, but I had a dr apt so I was hoping that would make me feel better. Which it didn't. I went to the dr on Wednesday and she drained a couple of the really big abscesses (eww, I know) and so then they kind of felt a little better because some of the pressure was off. But it usually takes a few hours for them to really feel better, so didn't make a huge difference at that point. And then she proceeded to tell me that one of them is looking a little big, and this is the second time she has had to drain it, so it might be a good idea to look into surgery on it. Which this is not the first time I've had surgery, I've had like 4 or 5 so far, but it's just so disheartening every time I have one. I think I'm getting better with the no gluten and stuff and then something acts up anyways. Which I do generally respond very well to surgery, it does get rid of the problem, but I just hate that I have to have them. So after 2 days of large amounts of pain and no sleep because of said pain, to then be told maybe another surgery (which are really painful even though she uses anesthetic because I metabolize drugs really quickly so it's hard to keep up) was just the last straw. I went home and ate my weight in chocolate (bad, I know) and watched the Big Bang Theory for like 2 hours. That is my feel better show because it always makes me laugh. That one and How I Met Your Mother. And then I had told my mom to call me when she was free, so she called me about 9, and I decided it was a good time to have a complete emotional break down and we talked until 11 at night. Basically it consisted of "my life is insane and I can't handle it anymore." There's so many things that I want to do but I just never have time! Like I only have 1 day off a week that I'm not working at all, and 3 days a week I'm working for almost 12 hours. 13 hours if you count transportation time. It's ridiculous. And then I hadn't had any sleep and then I was all bummed because of my surgery. I can generally handle my skin disease, I'm usually just like whatever I have a problem ok cool moving on. But when it is causing me that much pain, I can get really down about it. So between all of that together, I cried and Mom fixed all my problems. It was great. Ok, to just give you a picture of what I'm talking about, this was my week last week.
SUNDAY: Swam with Masters, 10-11:30, stayed home after that, it was nice, got some laundry done, cooked some food, got ready for the week, etc. Probably went to bed about 11 pm
MONDAY: Got up at 6 am, left my house at 6:45, worked 7-3:30, got home about 3:45. Made that avocado chicken salad, made a sandwich, subbed for someone at the pool, so left my house again at 4:40, went to work 5-6 at the pool. Only worked an hour, because they didn't really need me and I wanted to swim. Swam 6:15-7:45, got home about 8, watched the biggest loser, went to bed about 9:30. Woke up at 12:30, in super amounts of pain, slept very fitfully and not much until 6.
TUESDAY: Got up at 6, worked on campus 7-3:30, got home about 3:45, left my house at 4:40, worked 5-8:30 at the pool, got home about 8:45, went to bed about 9:30, still in lots of pain, still didn't get much sleep
WEDNESDAY: Got up at 6, worked on campus 7-3:30, after work went to the grocery store and the dr, got home about 5:30, hung out at home til about 9, had an emotional breakdown until about 11, talked to my roommate about it because she had heard me crying until about 12, went to bed about 12:30 because I took a real fast shower first
THURSDAY: Got up at 6, worked 7-3:30, got home at 3:45, did some paperwork online for work, took a shower, left my house at 4:20 because I had to go to CVS and pick up a prescription before work, worked 5-8:30 at the pool, got home about 8:45, had a glass of wine and went to bed at 9:30.
FRIDAY: Got up at 6, finally got a decent amount of sleep but still exhausted, worked 7-3:30 on campus which was crazy because it was MSU Friday where all the prospective high school students come check out the school, went home about 3:45, left my house at 3:50, walked to the pool, picked up my paycheck, walked to the bank and then back to the pool, got to the pool about 4:45, sat for 10 minutes, worked 5-8:30 at the pool, got home about 8:45, ate some dinner, then my friend picked me up about 9:30 and we went to the movies, got home about midnight, went to bed
SATURDAY: Alarm didn't go off, woke up about 8:45, ran around like a crazy person, got to work about 15 minutes late (I'm supposed to be there at 9), worked 9-6 at the pool with a 1 hour lunch break, came home, went to the grocery store so that I have all my food for Super Bowl Sunday, got home about 7 from that, ate some dinner and now I'm writing this.
Yeah.... INSANE. Which usually I wouldn't have worked at all Monday, and on Friday I usually would have had more time at home because I don't have to pick up a paycheck every Friday but still. It was crazy. So you could see how there would be no time to do fun things, or even things I need to do. Like I still haven't called the company about my juicer. And I've been meaning to make time to finally learn how to snowboard, but not really time for that. My one day off from work I'm at home doing laundry and grocery shopping and cooking and it's not even really a day off. But Mom told me that it's ok to say I'm doing too much, or I bit off more than I could chew, so I decided to give up a night at the pool. So I talked to my friend Maggie who just graduated and is looking for more hours and I told her I wanted less, so she will be working Tuesdays for me at the pool for the foreseeable future. YAY one more night at home. So that means I can maybe do things like make Monday night laundry night which will free up a little more of Sunday. Or maybe actually make it to masters more than once a week because I have another night I can stay home and cook or do whatever I need to get done. Hopefully that will free up a lot of time. Which I am super excited about. So I feel a lot better about that. Also my armpits are not nearly in as much pain, so that's better. And there's a 3 day weekend coming up in a few weeks so my friend Kayla and I made plans to go snowboarding! So I finally sort of feel like I have a bit more of a handle on my life. It's a good feeling. Mom's are awesome like that.
On a side note, last night for dinner I made a grilled cheese version of that avocado chicken salad sandwich, a couple slices of provolone, some Anaheim peppers and red onions, and it was awesome. Highly recommended. :)
So anyways, this was pretty much just to say sorry I haven't been posting all week, but you can see why. Also I haven't been doing great in the food department, sometimes I just didn't have time to eat anything except what was the first thing I could get my hands on so I messed up a few times I know. Gonna try to get back into it really well on Monday. But only about 5 weeks until my naturopath appointment, yay!
Hope you all had a better week than I did
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